Ellie

Is my best friend as she is probally my only friend that has made so many new friends but still continues to be herself. She doesnt hide herself behind a mask and then forget who she is.
Alot of people that used to be my friends put on a mask to impress people, that soon turned into their face. I know we don't hang out as much as we would both like but when we do hang out it still continues to be somewhat like it used to be concidering we both have had massive changes in our social lives. I wish everyone could do this.

oh and ellie says "fuck you central coast your all shit people and i hope eveyrone burns, and newcastle also"
HAHA plus she wanted me to google 2 vaginas to put as a photo in this blog but i though my image was much more appropriate.

This past week.

has gotten me thinking about how much everything and everyone has changed including myself.

I feel uncomfortable with people i used to tell everything to, I don't share my secrets with the ones i call my best friends anymore and i feel as though we all are in different groups now that its changed the way we all see things and are no longer on the same page, that if i do something ill be judged upon it.

In my mind I've worked out who I actually open up to and feel comfortable around.

I never thought it would be the people they actually are.

Looking back on the past just makes me shiver as it seems like it was the best time in the world.

Everyone was so close, comfortable with each other and acted so stupid and immature but no doubt we always have fun.

I hope next year rises back up because this year I'm afraid the plane has crashed.

havn't posted in a while.

Basically forgot this was here.
well goodnight
:)

Think about it.

I have realised that no matter how much we dont want drama in our life, some is always going to follow us. Were teenagers and thats what you get. Hunny, if you think you drama free think again.

<3

i had alot of fun

ilys

not liking this..

lately i have been feeling so distant to everyone.
it feels as if everyone is getting closer to one another but me and that I'm getting left behind.
A lot of people are changing and i feel I'm just staying the same.
i miss the way things used to be so good for me
but then i realise when things were good for me they probally weren't that great for others.
i don't want to be selfish, so I'm not going to try change a thing.
ill try my best to still be there until the day comes when everything starts to fall into place again.

i was just thinking

i hate it when people dont notice that they have perfetly great frinds right infront of there noses, so they go seek better people all the time and when they find them they just cut out the old ones but when they get fucked over just come running back... im really getting sick of this. I have always been the one who sticks by everyone even when we drift apart and the one that is constantly there when people need me. I have never really had a friend do the same back.. Im the one that they come to for advice and tell about their problems but not many people seem to listen to mine. I really dont have may complications in my life but i always seem get dragged into other peoples drama. I dont really have a friend that i can talk to about anything and everything because most of them dont seem to care or they just say stupid things back like i dont know. All this is probally why i cut off most of my emotions so i can help the peple who need me the most.
hmph