:'(

Feels like the world around me is crashing down.
Everyone is doing things they wouldnt normally do to feel accepted into the crowd.
I try and i try to tell some people how i feel and it never gets through to their heads.
They tell me they try to change, they want to change, that that are going to!
Hours later a dissapointed look strikes upon my face.
It seems as no one is capable of having a good time unless they are going to do something illegal...
I dont agree, i miss the old times where every single one of us where sober and had the best memories.
No stupid people running around looking trashy.
It hurts to see my freinds falling in so deep.
School days and School nights, its becoming a daily routine.
Thats what ticks me off the most.
Im not saying im a saint but i know how to conrol myself.
I hear "i want to be like you, be able to conrol myself and still have fun"
but nothing is going to happen on its own.
You have to belive in yourself and follow through, not just give up hours later.
Breaks my heart to see the people closest to me fading away into a black hole they might never get out of.